Meet Luna, and a Challenge

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This beautiful girl is Luna. She is 12 years old and from Colombia, and we share the same birthday. She is the newest addition to my Compassion sponsored children. Here’s what happened… Last night, as I was reviewing my sponsorship campaign site (more on that in a minute), I felt inexplicably drawn to browse through the children waiting for sponsors. It always pulls on my heartstrings when I see pictures of these children, and I like to pray for them that they find the right sponsors and soon. However, when I saw Luna’s picture, I felt something else; something more. I saw her and I knew, she had to be my newest Compassion daughter. I’ve found with my other children, that when you feel a strong pulling towards a child, as I’m sure any of you sponsors do, that that is the hand of God. Still, I decided to pray. I prayed that if Luna was supposed to be mine, that God would let me know by keeping this calling in my heart. I walked away and did other things to see if when I came back, I still felt that calling. Well, I did. I had it within my means to take on another sponsorship and still be ok, at least right now, so I clicked through to start the sponsorship and immediately I felt a combination of excitement and peace. You see, I have an income through the rest of the summer, but I chose to resign from my current teaching job at the end of May due to many changes to the district and practices that affected me and my students this year that I am not comfortable with. I don’t currently have a job lined up yet for the fall, although I am actively working on it. It is quite scary, leaving a job without having another one lined up, but it is a huge exercise in trusting in God.

Considering all of this, I thought back to one sponsor who shared her story this past weekend during the Act for Compassion Conference. After saying the Lord’s Prayer one day, she reflected on the line “give us this day our daily bread”. She realized that she had more than enough, and she wasn’t giving God the opportunity to truly provide her daily bread, since she had enough to provide it herself and more. As a result, she felt called to sponsor a large number of children, and ever since, God has provided and she has miraculously had enough to fund their sponsorships month after month. Her amazing story really stuck with me. And if she could sponsor many, many more children, I could certainly sponsor Luna, and trust that God will help to provide us both our daily bread.

Which brings me to my sponsorship campaign. After the conference, I was inspired to create a campaign through Act for Compassion, with a goal of getting 5 children sponsors. Now, thanks to a push from God, I have 1 child out of 5 sponsored. So, I challenge you this: whether you’re already a sponsor or not, I challenge you to take a leap of faith and put your trust in God to sponsor a new child. My page features children who have been waiting the longest, but you can specify more or other search conditions within the page. Just click this image below to get to it:

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Just look at some of the beautiful faces who have been waiting so long to hear those life changing words that they’ve been sponsored:

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Who will you release from poverty?

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A Connection and Prayer for a Child

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I received my packet for sweet Angeles in the mail yesterday and I was so excited! I’ve already sent her a couple emails, so this isn’t my first letter, but I’m sending my first handwritten letter in the mail to her. Not a ton of goodies this time, but in a week or so I’m going to be sending a special batch of letters to each of my kiddos with some goodies, so this will be good for now, plus I designed my own stationary for the letter- hope she likes it!

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While my current position in work is far from what I want to be doing or where my heart is, and I’m facing a lot of adversity and negativity day in and day out, the one thing that I don’t hate about it is the sweet little kids I work with, and some days like today I’m reminded that I am still making a difference, albeit a different one than I’m used to. The students in the classroom I work with in the morning are from families that come from Mexico, have Spanish as their first language, and are learning English, although most of them can talk to me in English by now with no problems, which is good, because my Spanish is very limited. As a bonus part time teacher in the classroom, I work with 2 students who need extra help especially, but I work with all of the students too. Having been moved to this position in the middle of the year, it took me some time to get to know all the faces, names, and personalities. One little guy I remember as one of the kids that stood out to me early on, though.

I guess you could say that if I was looking at a page of children waiting to be sponsored, he would be the one that I would be drawn to. Something about that face has such innocence, but wears such a burden on it at the same time. In the beginning of the year he barely talked, and even now he can be very quiet sometimes, but he has started talking more. And when he smiles, I can’t help but smile too. He’s been struggling a lot in math lately, as we’ve been progressing further. It’s not for lack of working hard, because I see how hard he works and tries, it just takes him longer than the majority of the class, and because he’s so quiet, he can easily slip through the cracks. I’ve taken him under my wing since I’ve started there, spending time many days kneeling by his side, guiding and encouraging. When I see the despair on his face through math, it breaks my heart. I give him extra high fives and have him “move his clip up” when he completes a hard problem or I see him giving it his all. Sometimes just a look and a smile goes a long way. I’ve seen the chance in his disposition when I do all of this.

Today as the children were working independently in math and I walked around the room checking in, I saw him with his head down on the table. I kneeled down beside him. He had shut down, at first not answering my questions at all. Completely overwhelmed at what he had to do, feeling hopeless. I patted him on the shoulder, gently, to let him know I understood. Slowly, patiently, I continued and he started to answer me, not with words, but by pointing cautiously with his pencil. I’d encourage him each time, and was so proud to see as we continued to progress with the problems, he got the answer correct each time. I made sure to give him lots of “good jobs” and smiles along the way. When we got to the end, I held my hand up and he gave me a big high five while I told him how awesome he is. “See,” I said, “you did it! You’re smart, ____. You really are smart. You know how to do all of this. You did it.” His face lit up as he beamed with pride, and I was busting in pride inside for him. If nothing else, if I can instill confidence in this little guy, if I can make him believe that he can do anything he sets his mind to, I will have done something meaningful.

I then looked at him and noticed what he was wearing today, which brings me to where this story connects. He was wearing a thin white turtle neck, just like my Elvis is in his picture. Looking slightly disheveled as well, he was also wearing navy blue pants with it.

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I realized how easily this little guy in front of me could be Elvis. And they’re only a year, maybe a year and a half, apart in age. I thought about how my prayers and dreams for Elvis have been that he believes that he can do or be whatever he wants, without feeling any limitations. I can’t be there to hug Elvis in person, or to high five him, or share a smile. But hopefully through Compassion and through my letters, I can still have that impact on him.

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Some Wednesday Encouragement

I’m linking up with Holley Gerth’s Coffee for Your Heart today to share some encouragement in the form of lyrics to one of my favorite uplifting songs, “Before the Morning” by Josh Wilson:

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Do you wonder why you have to,
Feel the things that hurt you,
If there’s a God who loves you,
Where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending
Some day, some how, you’ll see, you’ll see

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
That you still have a reason to sing,
’cause the pain you’ve been feeling,
Can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

So hold on, you got to wait for the light
Press on, just fight the good fight
Because the pain you’ve been feeling,
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
And you know where you’re going,
You just don’t know how you get there
So just say a prayer.
And hold on, cause there’s good who love God,
Life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
But you’ll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
That you still have a reason to sing,
’cause the pain you’ve been feeling,
Can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

So hold on, you got to wait for the light
Press on, just fight the good fight
Because the pain you’ve been feeling,
It’s just the dark before the morning
Yeah, yeah,
Before the morning,
Yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
All your pain will fade to memory
Once you feel the way of glory,
All your pain will fade to memory
Memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
That you still have a reason to sing,
’cause the pain you’ve been feeling,
Can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
That you still have a reason to sing,
’cause the pain you’ve been feeling,
Can’t compare to the joy that’s coming

Com’n, you got to wait for the light
Press on, just fight the good fight
Because the pain you’ve been feeling,
It’s just the hurt before the healing
The pain you’ve been feeling,
Just the dark before the morning
Before the morning, yeah, yeah
Before the morning

As I was praying this morning for things with my work situation that are not going well to resolve soon and work out for the best, as well as praying for the root canal I had today, this is the song that popped into my head. Since it helped provide me with some reassurance, I’m hoping it will help someone else too.

In other news, root canals are no fun at all 😦 Turns out I’m difficult to numb and apparently my teeth are difficult to extract the roots from as well. But at least that part’s done, so crown tomorrow and then it’s over with. Yuck!